The name of this salad doesn’t only refer to its small part in a beautiful dinner with family and friends this evening, but to a little something I wanted to share with you. On the plane over to England, I managed to get some sort of gastric virus. My response opened my eyes to how deeply illness can shake you and slant your view of normality.
For a few days I ignored it (as much as I practically could), then at the weekend, at the wedding of one of my oldest friends, I heroically partied through it! This morning, though, it returned with a vengeance. Devastated at missing my beloved cousin and his wife on an unusually coinciding visit, I lay down attempting to rest but mostly cried and chastised myself! Disappointment and frustration coursed through me but the dominant emotion was a sense of failure that I hadn’t surmounted my health issues, that somehow I had failed at ‘being healthy.’
This failure thinking will be understood by those who have recovered from lengthy illnesses through dedication and persistence. And to let go of failure thinking in the face of sickness comes down to agreeing that some things are out of your control. Just because I got myself well doesn’t mean I will never get sick and it doesn’t mean it’s my fault if I do get sick. It’s OK to get sick – it’s random. It will pass and then I will be healthy again. Being sick is not a sign of weakness or failure; it’s an occasional nuisance and nothing more.
This was worked out after a good chat and several cups of tea…and I did go to dinner! With this salad in tow of leaves, celery, avocado and seeds and a dressing made with plenty of immune boosters and antivirals like ginger, garlic, lemon, coriander, mustard powder and flax seed oil. The evening was a joy – the healing salve of loved family is the truest cure.
Thank you for reading this – I felt I needed to share it and thought it might strike a chord with some. x